I have received so much support today, in replies and DMs, from people who have long known the particulars of this whole mess since it began. I’m deeply grateful for that.
Rest under the cut, in case you don’t want drama, but I had a few more words to say, and wanted to get them out. Apologies for bringing personal drama into my blog. I try not to.
The crazy thing is that I once upon a time, I worried that I might lose many of my online friends to this person because they once managed to convince me so easily that multiple people in the community were bad, and I believed them, because they were just so friendly and nice, and just… so easy to take at their word I guess. And I already lost someone precious to me since meeting them, one of the most important people to me in my life at the time. So I was very afraid of losing even more people.
My friends mean the world to me, and many of you know it takes so, so much to drive me away, it takes a lot, over and over, because I refuse to give up on people. It takes so much that I literally did it twice in my entire life. I’ll keep turning the other cheek on you, until you pound me into the freaking ground, not because I’m a doormat, but because I just believe anyone can change and be better.
I should have given my true friends a little more credit than to have this baseless fear, and for that, I am sorry. Thank you for being there for me.