Melon-Pan

This is Melon-Pan. I hadn’t taken them out of storage in a while. They’re one of my two Monchhichis and fairly large, can wear newborn clothes. I was talking about Monchhichis with a good friend today and it made me want to hold Melon-Pan again.

In other news, I recently had a package from Sirkus! It had a replacement for my busted mousepad, and an order of a couple wonderful new items!

That pin gives me life… still have to decide what I’m going to use it on.

Today’s β€œdrop everything and panic” moment come courtesy of my baby snails, about five of whom found a way out of their terrarium. After a moment of intensely freaking out, I managed to slip them back in through the holes. Thank goodness their shells had hardened enough to withstand this very minimal, extremely gingerly done handling.

You see, all the babies are near the top of the cheap, poorly made $5 plastic terrarium. It’s going to be hard to remove the lid without hurting them, so when I do it, it’s gonna be to move them to their new, fancier terrarium. I had to find a way to get the babies back in without opening the lid. Thank goodness I managed it. I used some putty to plug the holes for now.

I am very, very tired. Lots of as arting today and lots of housework. It’s not even 11pm and I’m falling asleep as I type this.

Here is hoping tomorrow can be productive too. Goodnight everyone. 🐌 πŸŒ™

Little One 🐌🍼

The most wee slime child on a tiny branch of moss. I think I perhaps have 50 babies?

I’m very happy because my friend Snow has gifted me the funds I needed for a baby snail tank as an early birthday present. It’s just like the main tank but smaller:

Anyway I do hope everyone has a lovely weekend. I’ll probably post a couple of times throughout.

On Love

I was reminiscing the other day about some life experiences, particularly when it comes to the topic of love. Romantic and otherwise.

I have come to a wonderful and terrible realization when it comes to love.

You don’t need to be a nice person to be loveable. You don’t need to do nice things to be worthy of someone’s love.

I used to feel very strongly that if someone was a “bad person” (whatever that means) or purposely mean, you shouldn’t love them, but I never had connected dots in my head that resulted in this realization prior to recently. I thought this without ever putting it into words. So, when I loved people, I tried to find good qualities in them that made them worthy of my love. When they showed bad qualities, I excused them or tried to fix them, or removed them from my life if those bad qualities seemed to overwhelm the good ones. I forced myself to grow unattached, and find people worthy of being loved, and who loved me back. And perhaps this is healthy, but that is actually besides the point I’m trying to make.

Some years ago, when a friend of mine was severely depressed, I tried to remind him over and over of all the reasons that made him worthy of love. You are a good person. You do this. You do that. Thus, you deserve to be loved.

In truth, I have come to learn that it’s closer to “You are a person, and you are lovable.” We are all worthy of love to someone. It doesn’t really matter what kind of person we are. Maybe it should, but it doesn’t.

This ramble probably sounds a bit nonsensical. But the time came when I fell in love with someone who most of the time was not nice. Who a lot of the time could in fact be quite mean. Someone who often didn’t try to be nice, or even want to. And I loved them anyway. Actually I think (no, I know) I loved them precisely because they were this way. I kept thinking the love would go away. But, now I know that someone’s lovability is completely independent of the sort of person they are.

I felt the need to write this, because once I realized it, it really hit me like a million bricks, in a wonderful way, in a terrible way. I wish I could better articulate my words. Everyone is lovable to someone! This probably isn’t news to most people, but it was to me. You exist. Therefore, you are lovable. It’s really just how it is.

To someone, it doesn’t matter how much of a jerk you are. Or how rude you can be. Or any of those things. You exist in the world, and that is enough for that person to love you. Your mere existence trumps out any other factors.

If you ever feel that you don’t deserve to be loved, be assured. It is not a matter of deserving anything. It is enough that you exist. It is enough just as you are.

✨🌈 Monthly Giveaway On My Discord! 🌈✨

Hey guys! I just realized I didn’t talk about this here.

So you’ve all seen me go “DISCORD SERVER DISCORD SERVER JOIN IT PLEASE /GROSS SOBBING” all over the place. And yes. Please join my Discord server because I do NOT have an Instagram or Twitter or deviantART or Patreon anymore: https://discord.gg/xtaYuVH

Why would you want to join? Well, it’s chill, it’s fun and not spammy, you can talk with a wide variety of people, including other furries and Littles, but the server isn’t an ageplay-focused server so you won’t have all that, “You’re a baby; no, YOU’RE a baby, UwU I’m wet oops, let’s fight over who smells worse, *boop sticker* *hug sticker* *uppies sticker* to no end. Not to rag on that (ok, ok yes I am) but, it does create an atmosphere where you can actually *talk* to fellow Little and furry friends and basically anyone who has an interest in my art, including people who aren’t furries or Littles.

(In my defense I have yet to come across a Littlespace chat room that doesn’t ultimately devolve into that β€”if you enjoy that, more power to you! I just really want a place where I don’t have to see just that and nothing else. And every time I’ve seen it be allowed, anyone who doesn’t want to see that, well… leaves). 😞 And nothing else remains as much topic of conversation.

ANYWAY… my server is also THE primary place to find out about commission openings, THE first place I share my art to, and THE place where I’ll first share the nonsense that used to go on my Instagram. Streams will be announced there as well.

If the above makes zero difference to you, you should also join! Why? How about a ✨✨✨Monthly Giveaway✨✨✨?

🌟 THE STICKER SYSTEM πŸŒŸ

🌈 Here’s how it works! At the start of the EVERY month, the participating member with the most stickers (you can check this by typing !rank in any chat that allows participation) will get a FANTASTIC UNBELIEVABLY PRIZE OF…….

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One line art! Character of your choice (but no mainstream copyrighted characters) and pose up to me. You can color this line art if you wish. All of my usual Terms of Sale apply to giveaways: https://www.marinaneira.com/commissionterms

🌈 How to earn stickers you might ask? By participating in the chats! The more you participate the more stickers you’ll earn. When you earn a new sticker, you’ll get a message from the sticker bot within the current chat, telling everyone how many stickers you’ve earned so far! However, being purposely spammy for the purpose of earning stickers will not be tolerated! 😀

🌈 What is spammy? Lots of sticker spam nonstop where the point isn’t really to express yourself. Don’t send more than 2-3 stickers or memes/gifs in a row. Photos that add to the conversation don’t break this rule. Try to add to the conversations in a meaningful way.

🌈 You CAN win multiple times! But you can’t win twice in a row. If you win twice in a row the prize goes to the next person with the most stickers that month.

🌈 The number of stickers resets on the 1st of every month.

🌈 There are members in our group who may not be interested in such a prize. In this case you are welcome to allow the next person with the most stickers to be picked.

🌈 Questions? Ask me here, or @/MarinaNeira#1431 on Discord!

LET THE STICKER COLLECTING… BEGIN! βœ¨πŸŽ‰πŸ₯³πŸŽˆ

πŸ”ž NOTE: You MUST be over 18 years old to join my server!

πŸ‘‰ READ THE SERVER RULES BEFORE YOU PARTICIPATE πŸ‘ˆ

A New Friend! 🧸

A package from The Toy Shoppe came yesterday with a lovely new member for my hug! He was an early birthday gift from my friend Nero. Hardy, a new friend, also very kindly helped me to get him. His Charlie Bear name is Waffle, I always rename my bears though, and I don’t have a name for him just yet. But he IS lovely! And has a hint of an adorable smile, along with a very unique fur pattern.

What he reminds me most of is banana nut bread, which I suppose is not the strangest name when I have a Charlie Bear cat named Fish β€˜n Chips, but somehow it’s not convincing me.

I have him wearing this as a temporary outfit:

He can wear Build-a-Bear tops quite well, but he’s kinda bulky bottom-wise so he’s wearing newborn size shorts. I did get him a pair of overalls with a rewards card I had for BAB, because nothing looks as good on bears as overalls/dungarees. And I got him a little hat and bandana on AliExpress, as well as a pacifier I’ll customize with a brooch pin so he can wear it. Once I decide on a name I’ll decorate the pacifier to match. Can’t resist teddies with pacis.

He got to sleep with me last night, which I NEVER do for these expensive bears, but I needed the comfort.

So anyway the last few days have been work work work, nonstop, so I’m busy and tired and my arm/wrist are killing me. So I’ll end this post here. I hope everyone is having a lovely week!

Oh and please guys. Even if the economy is reopening please keep in mind COVID-19 CASES ARE UP. THEY ARE WORSE NOW THAN BEFORE. You are in danger still, don’t go out unnecessarily, wear your masks, if you must go out for work or whatever protect yourselves, even if people laugh at you, please remember it’s actually worse now. I don’t want you all to get sick or die or sicken family members and feel that guilt. Please, be careful.

Last Couple of Days! πŸ„

The last two days have been interesting. πŸ‘€ πŸ’¦ Where to begin…

I broke the washing machine by trying to wash a coir mat in it. πŸ€¦β€β™€οΈ The washing machine is now (likely? hopefully?!) fixed but still disassembled. We’ll put it back together this weekend.

We are also getting a new microwave delivered because ours broke… that is also happening this weekend.

I worked a bunch more on the porch (hellish under the Florida heat) 😫 and I’ve spent the whole week adjusting the descriptions on my remaining FA submissions (over 1,000). Since I used the FA feature of adding a footer to everything automatically I still have to remove my extra footer that was originally written manually on every submission. I’m also using the chance to remove any outdated information. That has been a grueling, boring, repetitive, mind-numbing job. But it’s almost done, I expect to be done in about two more hours.

Yesterday I got to go to the local Asian market again, and also to Publix, where Christopher let me get this new buddy for my library:

After that we had our date night dinner, which was wonderful! πŸ’•πŸ’•πŸ’•πŸ’• Hamburger steak with mashed potatoes and I’m excited to have leftovers tonight. We played Animal Crossing and I had a little wine. It was a lovely evening though I fell asleep quite fast. I couldn’t even stay awake to watch anime.

Date night snack while playing Animal Crossing!

I haven’t posted any OOTD’s here yet because I’ve kinda lost my oomph with them, temporarily I’m sure, but it’s a direct result of 1) being too busy reorganizing and deleting my social media 2) not going anywhere 3) not being on Instagram anymore. My selfie thing was a bit excessive and a bit unhealthy (for me). So, I don’t see this as a negative. But I’d like to upload at least a 2-3 OOTD’s a week once I am done with this online β€œreset”.

Oh, one last thing. My friend Nero mentioned an old anime called Bannertail: The Story of Gray Squirrel, which is itself based upon a book by Ernest Thompson Seton. Now, this writer is celebrated but quite problematic (some serious issues of appropriation of Native American culture, but he was born in 1860, so you know, a quite different time. He seemed to be fascinated with it in a positive manner, but in a manner that is regardless as cringy as it gets.)

Anyway, this man seems to have written some very interesting animal books, so I ordered three of them. Bannertail, Monarch, The Big Bear of Tallac, and The Biography of a Grizzly.

I’m hoping the less-than-ideal content in these books, if any, is not too prevalent or bad, though this hardly keeps me from reading anything (I have some seriously messed-up stuff by today’s standards in my library… since I collect antique children’s books and you would be shocked at the amount of casual racism books had a hundred years ago or so. You think well, it’s to be expected, but some of it is really terrible, and in those cases I keep the books for the sake of them being a gross curiosity, but they don’t become something I enjoy re-reading.)

I’ll post an update about those books once they arrive!

✨ Just a squelf, squelfin' around. ✨

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