A bunch of my birthday things got delayed due to COVID and other things, hence why I’ve continued to post about them two weeks later. Yesterday was the last one. Finally got to see my mom in law, who took us to Tea Time as a belated birthday treat. I was happy to see that the place was still there with all that has been going on… We discovered it when Madi’s Tea Garden closed down, and I couldn’t believe our luck at the time. I really hope it survives the pandemic. 🙏

I wore Lolita yesterday for the first time since March:

I took Tostito along on his first outing! 🐭🧀 He is so adorable. I’m really really glad I bought him and his knitted sweater is too cute. 💕

The first photo I took was actually hijacked by my mom in law… lol

Here is a photo of Tostito with our tiered tray of goodies:

Me, Tostito, my husband Christopher and my sweet mom in law, Tabby. She spoils us every time she visits. 🥰

This was my favorite photo of Tostito because he looks like he’s casually leaning against the table.

I was actually really surprised we could go at all. It was unplanned, and we didn’t make a reservation, I didn’t know if it would be open. I called before their opening hours just to see if there was any chance of an opening (you normally have to make a reservation, which I believe is mostly so they will have food prepped for your service.) Somehow it worked out.

Only thing that could have made it better would have been for my sister in law to be there. It was too bad she didn’t come along on this visit, but she lives and works many hours away. I actually didn’t even know she really liked high tea, until my mom in law mentioned it, and that especially made her not being there for it a really big bummer… I hope we will have another chance soon.

Last photo of Tostito:

After that we went to Petco, where I got another tank for the snails (I’m up to four… hah…) 😅 and a log for them to hide under. Then we went to Publix for dinner stuff and I also got the snail greens for the week. Christopher demanded that I do all of this without going home to change first, because he rarely gets to see me wearing my dresses these days. It wasn’t so bad. I protested a lot, but the truth is that I dress so outlandish every day, that it made it a lot easier. I did get stopped or commented on around seven times while at Publix and it was always so sweet and nice, that it was really encouraging. Honestly, were it not for the heat, I wouldn’t mind wearing it more often.

Later two good friends came over. We drank a little and played cards after dinner, but I called it a night early. Too tired, too sleepy. I still feel tired and sleepy now, and even a little depressed.

Not sure why, other than being at Tea Time reminded me of when I was there on my last birthday, that time with our friends, and some really upsetting stuff happened that I had to force myself not to react to, but which really stuck with me. 😞

I had to hear some really insensitive things as well as some really deeply disturbing ones, all from someone I considered a close friend, on my birthday no less, and I remember being in the front seat of the car as some of these things were being said, just sitting there in stunned silence trying not to cry, while Christopher pumped gas, unaware until later of what had been going on. It wasn’t stuff about me, and it was mostly jokes, but it was so horrible and disturbing and affected me so much at the time, that I can’t forget it. Probably because of other upsetting things that had been said earlier, too, though those were to my face.

It’s just… sucky. I’m trying to make so many changes to my social life online and offline to get away from situations and relationships that are bad for me. But it all seems to follow me. Not directly I suppose, but it seems impossible to fully get away, fully block it out.

I’m gonna try to get today going. Shower, do my chores, maybe eat better today, drink more water… I bet if I can get some drawing done I’ll shake this funk somehow.